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- Just as an Xmas present to y'all I am going to type in a bit about
- Ginsberg's yage expedition in 1960. I will excerpt and paraphrase hunks
- of "Dharma Lion" by Michael Schumacher, which, while quite long, is a fun
- read even if you're not a fan of Ginsberg (I'm not), as long as you are
- interested in beatniks, the '60's and such.
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- Ginsberg first used LSD in 1959. He received an invitation from Gregory
- Bateson to experiment with it at Stanford's Mental Research Institute.
- He wrote to his dad, "It was astonishing. I lay back, listening to music,
- and went into a sort of trance state (somewhat similar to the high state
- of Laughing Gas) and in a fantasy much like a Coleridge world of Kubla
- Khan, saw a vision of that part of my consciousness which deemed to be
- permanent and transcendent and identical with the origin of the universe -
- a sort of identity common with everything - but a clear and coherent sight
- of it."
-
- He later (June 1959) wrote a poem, "Lysergic Acid," part of which goes like:
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- The image or energy which reproduces itself at the depths of
- space from the very Beginning
- in what might be an O or an Aum
- and trailing variations made of the same Word circles round
- itself in the same pattern as its original Appearance
- creating a larger lineage of itself throughout depths of Time
- outward circling thru bands of faroff Nebulae & vast Astrologies
- contained, to be true to itself, in a Mandala painted on an
- Elephant's hide,
- or in a photograph of a painting on the side of an imaginary
- Elephant which smiles, tho how the Elephant looks is an
- irrelevant joke -
- it might be a Sign held by a Flaming Demon, or Ogre of
- Transcience,
- or in a photograph of my own belly in the void...
-
- In January 1960 he went to Santiago, Chile to a writers' conference. After
- the conference he wandered around northern Argentina, then went
- back to Santiago, and got some grant money and some unexpected money
- from poetry sales that allowed him to pursue his plan to go to La Paz,
- Bolivia. "According to his plan, he would stay in La Paz for two or
- three weeks, sightseeing and waiting for his mail to arrive, and from there
- he would proceed to Peru, where he would hook up with people who could
- direct him to sources of yage."
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- He went to Lima, where William Burroughs had been exactly 7 years ago.
- Burroughs had given Allen instructions on how and where to get yage.
- He contacted a doctor who helped him get some ayahuasca, and he tried
- it in his Lima hotel room on May 23. "He had received a jar of an
- already-prepared solution that was nowhere near as potent as the
- mixture made by the Amazonians Burroughs had written about, but
- the experience was memorable nevertheless... `I drifted away in bed
- in darkened hotel room and came to the gate of heaven and yelled in
- my mind, `I am back home in the house of the splendid ancient Lord, and
- I am the son of the Lord, in fact I am the lord himself come back home
- and I want the gates open.' Got a minute of feeling near Union, but
- the dose was too small & I was too amazed to get completely lost.'"
-
- He then went to Pucallpa, a town on the edge of the Ucayali River that
- Burroughs had recommended as a source of yage. It was a slow, rough
- trip. Once he got there, he looked up a local authority on yage, who
- put him in touch with a curandero willing to give him some ayahuasca.
- "Known as Maestro, the curandero had studied under a witch doctor and
- grew his own Banisteriopsis caape plants to use in his yage brew. The
- ritual was held in the evening, and on a typical night there would be a
- group of five to thrity people taking the drug. On his first night,
- Allen was given a dose of older and slightly fermented yage that, though
- still more powerful than the earlier dose he had taken in Lima, did not
- produce the violent nausea and powerful visions that Burroughs had written
- about from his experiences. About 45 minutes after drinking the liquid,
- Allen had a sense of being in the presence of `the Great Being,' which
- was manifest in the form of an eye staring from a great black hole
- surrounded by hallucinatory apparitions of snakes, fish, butterflies,
- birds, and other creatures symbolizing, as far as he could tell, the
- entirety of creation. The feeling was pleasant.... The effects of the
- drug lasted about three hours. Allen had no sooner returned to his normal
- state when he began to look forward to his next experience."
-
- Let's just recall that Burrough's experiences were indeed far more
- intense. When Burroughs had taken the drug, he was violently nauseous,
- dizzy, numb in the limbs, and chilled. He wrote, "Larval beings
- passed before my eyes in a blue haze, each one giving an obscene, mocking
- squawk," and had imagined himself to be alternately a man and a women in a
- delirium that lasted for nearly four hours. So Ginsberg clearly knew
- there could be more to the yage experience than a wimpy "Great Being"
- vision. :-)
-
- "However, it was different the next night, when he took a fresh and
- therefore much stronger dose. Maestro served the yage ceremoniously,
- blowing smoke over the enamel cup and humming a melancholy song before
- he handed it to Allen. As he felt himself getting high, Allen lay
- down on the ground waited, expecting the same kind of pleasant visions
- as he had experienced the night before. Instead, as he reported to
- Burroughs, `the whole fucking Cosmos broke loose around me': `I felt
- faced by Death, my skull in my beard on pallet on porch rolling back
- and forth and settling finally as if in reproduction of the last
- physical move I make before settling into real death - got nauseous,
- rushed out and began vomiting, all covered with snakes, like the Snake
- Seraph, colored serpents in aureole all around my body. I felt like
- a snake vomiting out the universe - or a Jivaro in head-dress with fangs
- vomiting up in realization of the Murder of the Universe - my death to
- come - everyone's death to come - all unready - I unready...'"
-
- "Even as he was experimenting with drugs, he knew they were not the
- answer. He wanted something pure, a higher consciousness attained without
- the use of artificial means. Still, as long as he had reached the level
- of consciousness he had under the influence of yage, he would not abandon
- the drug. Since his childhood days and his Shrouded Stranger fantasies,
- he had been terrified of facing death, God, or whatever supreme
- consciousness was out there. Although, as he told Burrough, he was not
- certain of the price he would pay for staring into the void, he would
- continue his quest until he had answers for some of his questions."
-
- "Night after night, he returned to Maestro for more yage, and each day
- following, he would write about the experience in his journals...."
-
- Later, wanting to try ayahuasca from other parts of Peru, he went to
- Iquitos, a port on the western end of the Amazon. "As he suspected,
- the yage brewed in the Amazonian region of Peru differed from that which
- he had taken in Pucallpa. The mescla used as a catalyst in the mixture
- was different. Allen was eager to try it, as well as bring home a sample
- for later consumption. After a week in Iquitos, he located a man living
- at the outskirts of the city who was willing to give him a dose. On June
- 24, he took three swallows of ayahuasca from a small gourd cup, and, while
- the brujo sat nearby, tapping his foot and whistling a tune, Allen was
- delivered to a multidimensional universe watched over by a serpent so
- huge that ithe middle of its body and tail disappeared into the void.
- The whistling sound became part of the vision - the sound the serpent
- made to signal `its Eternal presence at all times and place.' The serpent,
- for all its gigantic and powerful presence, was not entirely frightening.
- It promised a resolution to death, the entrance into its spirit and
- the understanding of this consciousness. The vision seemed to imply
- that death, although unavoidable, was not as terrifying as Allen had
- imagined it. Death, he reasoned, was the breakdown of a familiar
- dimension."
-
- "The next day, he was on a plane heading back to Lima...."
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